Autumn Bucket List

Hi Everyone

Its time to get back on the blogging horse (metaphorical of course) and why not come back with my personal bucket list for the season! I love Autumn, most of the time, and every season I write a bucket list in my bullet journal because as a person I need personal goals to function. So my theory is that if I write them on my blog as well as my bullet journal then I am more likely to complete them (I have already hit one of my goals which is a first!) 

1. Have a Harry Potter binge Day (DONE)

2. Go on an Autumnal walk

3. Have a Costa/Starbucks hot chocolate date

4. Sort out Wardrobe and donate clothes

5. Finish Decorating my room (put wallpaper up)

6. Go the the Gym at least twice a week

7. Try a new craft project

It may be a small list, for now, but in November I will probably add more to this list as its going to keep me busy during this boring and pointless gap year. 

Hope you are all enjoying Autumn.

Charlotte x

Choices and Regret.

Hi Everyone

So I know what you're all thinking "Oh Charlotte wheres the New York Posts you promised?" Well I didn't make it to New York. I made a choice to differ for a year and take a gap year instead. I'm not going right into details as its quite private and not necessary to be put on my blog but yes I am still in Durham and have a part time job at Marks and Spencer at the Metro Centre to raise some funds for New York and to give me some life experience to prep for next September. I have gone into hiding really since 17th September. Even though I am stuck in awful Durham for another year I am planning to have a very chilled year after 2 years of hell at college and to rebuild my confidence. I am already planning a holiday and in March will be going to the Harry Potter Studio Tour with my Sister and seeing Cursed Child in London. So I suppose its not all doom and gloom. I am so grateful the AADA is letting me differ for the year.

I'm sorry if I've let anyone down but I am quite down about it all and embarrassed to tell you guys but it needed doing. 

To all those 'friends' who have completely ignored me, blatantly replaced me or told me I'm a disappointment. You know who you are and all I have to say is that at least I know who my real friends are and you certainly aren't one of them. 

But to end on a high note I would like to thank Tony and Patrick for being so lovely and talking to me everyday and making sure I actually haven't gone insane. Love you guys. 

Heres to more blogging and a good gap year ready to prep me for next year.

Charlotte x

Summer Reflection

Hi Everyone!

As I write this post we are now in the start of Autumn which means cosy jumpers, hot chocolates and snuggly blankets are on their way, I am currently wrapped up in my pashmina because I am bloody frozen! I thought I would do just a reflection type thing on my Summer so lets give it a whirl.

I don't regret most of what I did this Summer, I basically worked all Summer which was so tiring and I still haven't decided if it was worth the pay but I did make some amazing friends and I don't know how I functioned without them in my life! I also did make some cash which wasn't a bad thing whatsoever and has contributed to my retail therapy addiction. 

I've had time to catch up with friends that I haven't seen in months which was lovely but also a bit sad as I know I'm not going to see them for a while once I move but I have had some lovely mate dates and they have been the highlight of my Summer. I also finally went down to Chester to visit the sister and meet her housemates which was a lovely few days away and it was nice to see her before I leave. I also got to visit the infamous Jaunty Goat which is the coffee shop she works at and they do THE BEST red velvet cake! And Chester has the best little vintage shop called Lily Vintage which really 'helped' with my addiction to crew neck vintage varsity sweatshirts.  

I also had one last trip to London to get my visa which was both really nice and sad because I always planned that I would move to London but plans change which isn't a bad thing! Another big change is that I have changed my surname finally and will be going through Deed Poll in the future to make it official!

If I'm honest I've had a really quiet Summer and kind of wish I did more as I wanted this to be the best Summer ever before I make the move but theres very little to be done now and the things I did do were amazing and I wouldn't have missed them for the world!

Charlotte x

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Day Out at Beamish!

Hi Everyone!

Well I have just come back from a lovely day at Beamish and thought that I would write a post asap so I can document this fab day! For any of you who don't know what beamish is, it is an outdoor museum in the North East of England and shows the history of Britain, its called a living museum because visiting it is like visiting an actual place, if that makes sense! I hadn't been to Beamish in about 10 years as the last time I went was in year 2 on a school trip so thought I was due a visit! I love learning about history and going to museums and watching documentaries so I was pretty excited.

As we arrived and paid it turns out that our tickets are valid for a year and we can come as many times as we want which is pretty good as we are already planning to go the Dig For Victory Event next week which is exciting! Entering the museum took me back about 10 years, it was exactly as I remembered. The trams and everything was so fascinating and I couldn't wait to see what was new and what was the same. We headed down to the Pit Village and Colliery as this was the first thing on the map where we wanted to visit. It was so fascinating and interesting to learn about how the pit village ran and what all the different roles were. It was literally like walking into a proper village with animals and veg and all the different buildings. The mine/colliery section was massive and like borderline breath taking.

After visiting the pit village we headed to the 1940's farm which was so adorable and picturesque. There were so many animals and vegetable patches. Also going into the farm houses it showed us how small and basic they were back in World War 2. 

 Next stop on the visit was the Railway and Town. I was like a kid in a sweet shop going to the railway section. I am a bit of a secret train nerd and I find it all so interesting. Especially learning about trains in the past. As we headed towards the train platform the queue was massive to get on the train so we decided to go on the train another time. It was a proper old fashioned steam train. We stood on the bridge and watched it go by and it had a Railway Children vibe about it all. 

 After the train passed by we headed on over to the town and it was exactly how I remembered. The dentist and the sweet shop and the bank, it was kind of spooky how much I remembered of it. We visited the dentist and the singing teachers house which was really cool but also a tad busy then we hopped on over to look at the stables and the carriages used for transport. Afterwards we joined the queue for the sweet shop and as we were just chatting I spotted Becca from college coming out and it was so lovely to have a quick catch up and see each other again! Going into the shop caused me to hyperventilate as they do these sweets called blacks and rasps which are chewy sweet versions of blackberries and raspberries, I had waited 10 years to get them again and was overjoyed to see they still did them! We also got a bag of cinder toffee which is a staple from Beamish. Its basically a honeycomb slab of goodness. We then visited all the different shops and then hopped on a tram to the manor style house.

The tram ride was rather not relaxing as it was so busy but we got off at the entrance stop then walked to the Pockerley Old Hall which was so beautiful and looked like it could be a house someone would be living in today! The garden and Vegetable patch was just so beautiful and the whole setting was very picturesque. 

Overall the day was so lovely and we had beautiful weather! Maybe it wasn't the best weather to wear a thick knit jumper but I ploughed through and I can't wait to go back to the Dig for Victory section next week! Would recommend to anyone no matter your age to take a visit to Beamish!

Charlotte x

Dear Rosie

Dear Rosie,

Nearly a month has passed since you left me and I feel like now is the time to write this letter to you, words cannot describe how lonely I am without you and how much I miss you. You were by my side for 7 years and I would say you were my silky dramatic sidekick.

When I first saw you in the section of pets that had been abandoned or were up for separate adoption I instantly fell in love with you, your massive ears were just so perfect and your beautiful face made my heart melt. Bringing you home was one of my favourite memories of all time, we put your box on the table while we set up your hutch and I can remember so distinctively your ears just poking out the box. You were so tiny, I couldn't get over how small you were even though you were already a year old! It felt like we were instantly best friends and you seemed to have accepted me as your owner straight away. I have so many amazing memories of you that will never leave me: summer days of me lying on a blanket while you were sunbathing in your run, your silky black coat shining in the sunlight. Giving you a present every Christmas because you were a member of the family and deserved so many treats. When you were a bit older we bought you a lead and I was obsessed with walking you around the house!

Any time with you was the highlight of any day. When you were in your tent and just fell asleep which was the cutest thing ever! Even though you wee'd on me and pooped all over the place, including my bed, and you bit me badly only the once you were still my little pickle. When we first found the lump on you 2 years ago the bottom of my world fell out, the thought of you in pain and not in my life broke my heart. After your surgery and stay in the rabbit caravan I thought you would hate me after the struggle of giving you antibiotics but nevertheless you still showed your love and affection. I thought you would be fine and that would be it but then the second lump came which we got removed again and then the third lump came. We were told that this was the end of the road and we should make you comfortable. I couldn't bare the thought of you in my life and spoilt you even more. I stopped caring if you wee'd on me and my bed and I didn't care that I was allergic to you and not taking an anti histamine would mean sneezing all day. Watching you get slower and slower and quieter worried me so much but you kept powering through until the 18th July 2017, Kathy was picking me up from work and told me how unwell you were and that the third lump had started bleeding badly. The drive up to the vets was the worst 30 minutes of my life. When we were told you were in a lot of pain and it was kinder to put you to sleep, words cannot describe the pain and heartbreak of watching you go to sleep but I was going to be with you in the end, I would never leave you ever. For the past few weeks I have constantly missed you and when I first walked past your empty hutch it really sank in that I would never see you again.

But I am a firm believer in reincarnation and believe that once you passed away you started your life again as a new born bunny who is going to go on to make someone else as happy as I was. I consider myself one of the luckiest people to have known you and my life won't be the same without you. You impacted my life so much and I want to thank you for all the love and snuggles you gave me over the years. I hope your new life is just as lovely as this one was!

I love you so much Rosie.

Charlotte xx

Rosie Fairbairn - October 2010 - 18th July 2017